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Despite
first appearances at the scene of the accident, Ballard is quite badly injured.
He must spend time convalescing in a hospital bed, as his leg is treated, and
the scars on his face and chest heal. The ward in which Ballard has been placed
is clinical, clean, yet strangely empty. His is the only bed out of
twenty-three that is actually being used. It transpires that this ward is set
aside for the care of air-traffic victims, somehow Ballard has found himself in
the aeronautical fantasies of his wife. Catherine sits beside him, she
whimsically wonders if she will also find herself in one of the beds, should she
crash during her own flight lesson.
It is almost as
though the doctors have sensed something obscure has infected Ballard, and that
it is best not to allow him close proximity with other, more vulnerable,
patients. Distance from this obscure infection of idea is preferred and
paramount. Ballard’s leg has been smashed, his wears a brace full of pins,
holding the bones in place. The camera pans across the wounds, across the metal
braces. In this sense the injured leg looks to have taken on some of the
characteristics of the vehicle in which it had been damaged, as though the steel
had begun to grow out of the lacerations.
The metal brace
is supporting Ballard, aiding in his healing. He has already become accustomed
to his bodies need to have these feats of engineering as part of his life, to be
with him at all times, to help him come back together. We never once see him
cringe or show any outward signs of pain, despite the enormous damage that has
been afflicted. Indeed, he seems rather matter-of-fact about the entire thing.
Catherine sits
beside the bed, smoking on her cigarette, showing little concern that her
husband might have perished. Beside the tangle of supports, drainage tubes and
bandage, she seems to be convinced that this is part of a theatrical show, as
though the injuries were merely make-up. The metal intrusions into Ballard’s
body don’t attract her attention. She still looks drugged, in a haze, but this
isn’t caused by the accident, it’s merely a carry over from that initial scene
in the aircraft hangar.
Ballard is
aware of the inevitability of the crash, as though the stories he had heard in
the past were prophetic, a telling of everyone’s future. In a moment of
reflection he states:
“After being bombarded endlessly by road-safety propaganda, it's almost a relief
to have found myself in-an actual accident.”
Catherine does not remark on this, but as the film develops she too will go in
search of release by way of vehicular suicide. Ballard is both one step ahead
of her, actually having experienced an event first hand, and one step behind,
having never previously tied together his bored sex life with machinery.
Catherine’s
devotion is obvious, however. She is at her husband’s bedside, caring for him,
keeping him company. He has now been removed from his world of work, sex, and
idle remembrance. He will never be able to get back to it, he has changed both
physically and mentally. We will never again see him carefully picking over
storyboards and helping on set. Instead, he is distracted by the smallest of
things, and already answers to Vaughan, whom he has yet to meet. Catherine
follows in Ballard’s wake, floating just above the surface of things, not sure
what it is they’re getting into, but knowing that she’ll inevitably follow.
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