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f the previous scene had helped us appreciate Ballard's
motivations and frustrations at being an invalid, then the
next scene marks the point at which he decides he must move
on.
Ballard finally
leaves his apartment, visiting old haunts. Following steps he must have taken
many times, he descends to the basement of his apartment building, into the
parking lot below. Each driver has an assigned spot, and Ballard visits his
own, known as "Ballard 435". He looks into the empty space with a sense of
yearning.
Beyond the
parking space, through bars and fencing, is the highway beyond. A constant hiss
of traffic passes by, and we see Ballard's eyes darting back and forth as though
trying to keep up with the fast moving vehicles. It's almost overwhelming to
his senses. Boredom, frustration, and perhaps a desire to once again
experience something, even the remotest possibility of a random act of vehicular
violence, plays across Ballard's face.
The idea of
revisiting old haunts, past memories that lead themselves to his accident, is
continued in the next scene where Ballard visits his wrecked vehicle, as though
visiting a crash victim in a hospital. These are the final goodbyes.
It is worth
noting that there are no consequences to Ballard's actions at any point in the
film. Even at the scene of his accident, the police never arrive. He is never
questioned by the police, and there seems to have been no consequences to the
incident other than this change in his psyche. This reinforces the idea that
what occurred is a natural progression, not something to be discussed, but
rather a perfectly expected event, like the sudden arrival of puberty, certainly
not worthy of explicit retribution.
Like the
echoing home of a dead relative, the parking lot, with its empty space, is as
close to grief as Ballard is allowed to get.
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